A little catching up to do...

I get so frustrated with myself because I don't keep up with my blog...(I'm going to need some cheese with my wine for a moment)...I'm a super busy girl - I work full-time, Zach is so involved school, baseball, friends, girlfriends and Mason...well he just keeps us busy right now by talking and asking a lot of questions.  I do NOT want Zach to grow up, but I do want him to get his license like NOW - we are exhausted by driving him everywhere and I mean everywhere!  I don't have a laptop anymore, so when I get home (which is late), I don't want to spend more time on the computer downstairs.  Trying to keep all our schedules together is extremely hard, but some how I have it all in my head.  I'm done whining now...you don't need to read on because its simply just to catch up on this year before I forget.

January: My post in January was about Project Life - I'm pretty darn proud of myself...I have been taking pictures and keep notes - and most recently I've organized those photos in an album.  I decided not to do my Project Life digitally because again when I get home from work, I don't want to spend more time on a computer.

February: Zach officially started baseball tryouts and made the JV team at Hilliard Bradley.  He was a bit disappointed because the entire tryout he was working with the Varsity team and all the upper-class men were sure that Zach would be on varsity - but the Varsity Coach told Zach he was the ACE on JV.  A lot of parents told us that were shocked that Zach wasn't on the varsity team (It broke my heart for Zach because this kid eats, sleeps, and breathes baseball!)

My Mama (grandma - my Mom's mom) became very ill - last Thanksgiving we noticed she had a huge growth on her forehead and was very wobbly.  Over the course of a couple of months she had gone to the doctor and then they finally removed it at the end of January/early Feb (I can't remember exactly).  The results came back that it was bi nine - but because my grandma was not doing well, she had a MRI - which then indicated that my grandma had lung cancer (I think we found this out close to the end of the month).  She was hospitalized for a for about 2 weeks - during that time, we were told that obviously there wasn't anything they could do for her.

March: Zach was still practicing for baseball so I spent a lot of time visiting my grandma.  I spent a Saturday morning with her visiting and asking her lots of questions about her life and of course my Mom's.  My grandma never really admitted to us she had lung cancer because she didn't want to know she smoked (even know we have known it for years).  If you are still reading...you might want to stop...because this might make you cry...

My grandma was released from the hospital on Thursday, March 8.  On Friday, March 9, I went to visit her at my aunt's house.  I spent about a 1-1/2 with her and then I was getting ready to leave...I could tell my grandma wanted to tell me something but wasn't sure how to say it.  So I sat on the bed with her and told her how I loved her and I wasn't ready to let her go...she said she lived a great life and that she was at peace.  She went on to tell me that she really didn't want to be there and would much rather be in her own home.  Then...she said..."I want to tell you something...I saw Judy today (my mom)." I said, "You mean you were thinking about her today?"  She said, "No, I can see her as clear as I see your face right now."  I honestly had to look white as a ghost...this caught we way off guard...a million things were running through my head...the only thing I could think of saying was..."Is she happy?"  She said, "Yes, and she's really proud of you."  Words cannot describe the feeling of joy I felt hearing those words...those are words that I wanted to hear from my mother for 7 1/2 years since she has been gone.  You see I think things happen for a reason and I truly believe my Mom was with her and that's why my grandma was really at peace.  As hard as it is to lose someone, the rewards of that conversation were remarkable...MY MOM IS PROUD OF ME and now I can say that with 100% certainty.  Unfortunately, my grandma passed on March 12 and I also have to say her funeral didn't go the way it should have (family drama), but I know my grandma is in a happy place with my grandpa, her son and her daughter...how rewarding for her.

More to come...